No Surprise Pregnancy

I'm sure there are obvious downsides to finding out you're having a baby halfway through your pregnancy. Maybe the experience is a bit like finding out you're having a multiple pregnancy and crazy shock, fear, uncertainty come before the joy. But to me, the women who grace shows like 'I Didn't Know I was Pregnant' are downright magical. To me women who bypass a significant portion of their pregnancy truly in the dark are BLESSED!

I belong to that other end of the spectrum. Call us 'sensitive' or 'intuitive', in any case, women like me don't wake up six weeks after conception and confusedly upchuck like in the movies. Women like me see the date with the toilet weeks in advance. As I'm alluding to, I happen to have the ...gift... of knowing I'm pregnant at the moment of conception. Modern science says I'm mistaken, but we can all agree that man's methodological dissection of creation still hasn't uncovered everything yet! Many other women profess the sense of feeling conception almost as readily as women can feel ovulation.

My personal experience of conception, which I've experienced three times, is pretty trippy. In those hours or couple days after the creative 'deed', my head goes fuzzy. I begin to see a virtual kaleidoscope of colors and every blissful emotion erupts. A huge, goofy grin spreads across my face that I can't wipe off, and I somehow know, at a deep level, that someone has been created inside of me. After the initial euphoria and bewilderment subsides, I become very meditative. I'm keenly aware of the sacred journey I've been blessed to embark upon, and I dedicate my journey and the life created within to all that is good and loving in the world.

And then I wait.

Oh, that wait for validation! It is the mind killer after fear. For two weeks, your discovery, your intimate understanding can't be proved with any current medical technology. MAYBE a blood test will show your condition if your hormones are particularly potent, but for most of us, we have to exist in a universe all our own until 'pee stick day'. Many partners, become annoyed because you SWEAR your veins look bigger, or you smell food from down the street. Some will tell you to just wait and see to temper their own excitement. If you have a partner who will enter that space of knowing bliss you're in before validation comes, you're very fortunate!

So, no surprise pregnancy for me. Or maybe you if you're reading this. For us, pregnancy is a year long miracle that you watch slowly unfold in all of it's nuances and twinges. By three months we're settled in with a grounded excitement when other women are just ramping up on their initial bursts. My personal journeys have been super long as I usually gestate well beyond 40 weeks. Despite the patience it painfully grows, I am grateful to have been conscious of every moment I've had with my babies.

If you are one of the women who only get five months or less to prepare for your bundle of joy, I commend you on what must take resilience and a bit of a sense of humor to integrate. May your relatively brief pregnancy journey be full of blessing and joy! And, can we maybe...trade experiences next time? I'll take that six week delay any day.

Thank you in advance!

Much Love Always!

Zuri Sabir, CD-B/P

Thank you

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